CHAPTER ELEVEN
The next day it was almost ten before Tom finally woke from another night of fitful sleep interrupted by vague nightmares. He put on a pot of coffee and poured himself a bowl of cereal. He was not sure if it was corn, wheat, or whatever kind of flakes or squares. It really did not matter to him. They all tasted like pieces of cardboard and Styrofoam coated with sugar.
Clumps of foul-smelling semi solids
came from the container of milk. Tom
decided it was best to skip making breakfast.
There were several fast-food restaurants on the way to the church. He was sure Angela would not mind stopping
for breakfast.
After a quick shower, he went outside
to wait for her, this time making sure the book was in his shoulder bag.
“We’re early,” Angela said as she
drove up to the curb.
“Good, we can stop to get something
to eat.”
Tom checked his shoulder bag again to
make sure the book was there. He knew it
was there, but he had a strange feeling that it was somehow trying to escape.
“What’s wrong Tom?”
“I’m a little nervous. That’s all.”
“You met Father Alphonsus
yesterday. Didn’t you like him?"
“He’s okay, I guess. It’s only that I’m not that religious. I’m only playing along, humoring him. I seriously doubt he can do anything to help
me.”
Five minutes later they were at the
Train Stop Café. From the outside it was
a typical 1950’s style diner but with the appearance of a railroad dining
car. Inside the original diner was
remodeled into a miniature restaurant. A
few tables set close to each other replaced the old booths and barstools.
Angela parked in one of the only
three spaces left. A short walk across
the graveled lot, up the steps, then Tom held the door for her.
“I have a seat in the back by the
window. Is that alright?” The waitress
asked.
While they looked at the menu, Tom
noticed a woman sitting at the table across from theirs. Her sparkling blue-green eyes and
straw-colored blond hair that almost hung down to her shoulders fascinated him. She stared at Tom while smiling playfully,
obviously flirting with him.
Angela turned to see what he was
staring at before giving him a questioning look.
“I can’t help it. It’s only a physical response, like a
reflex,” he whispered hoping the other woman could not hear.
“Yeah, right; some reflex,” Angela
whispered back.
“But it doesn’t mean…”
“I know. I’m only giving you a hard time.”
"I recognize her. I saw her at the bookstore where I found the
book. She was the one who put it back on
the shelf."
The blond smiled at him again and
then crossed her legs, her short skirt riding up high on her thighs. The edge of her blue panties was just
visible.
"Why are you staring at her
again? If you’re so attracted to her,
why don't you go sit with her instead of with me?"
"It's just that I recognize her
from the bookstore, and she had the book before I did. That's why I'm looking," Tom lied. He felt a strong attraction to the woman, but
it was not just a physical attraction.
There was a mysterious almost spiritual fascination.
“Are you two talking about me?” The
blond asked, giving Tom an alluring wink and a smile.
Tom found it funny. She was being too obvious and silly. He shook his head in disbelief.
“Ah, no; not at all,” Tom said.
“Are you two lovers or only
friends? Because if you’re free I’d like
to meet with you sometime. My name is
Lilith.”
“We’re in a relationship,” Angela
said in an angry tone of voice.
“I wasn’t talking to you
sweetie. Let the man speak for himself.”
“I’m flattered but she’s right. We’re going out.”
“We’ll see how long that lasts. She's delusional if she thinks you won't drop
her to be with me," Lilith said.
"You're the one who's
delusional. We have something special
that no one can ever stop," Angela yelled back.
Tom spent the rest of the meal trying
not to look at Lilith. He could tell
from the corner of his eye that she was still staring at him. When he took a chance on a brief look Lilith
fondled her breasts over her blouse slowly moving her hands up to her bra
straps pretending to adjust them.
“Come on Tom let’s get out of
here. We have an appointment to keep.”
Angela took his hand and led the
way. As they stood up Lilith jumped to
her feet and bumped into Tom causing him to drop his shoulder bag. The book was
now on the floor.
"Here's your book," Lilith
said.
"Thanks."
"My pleasure," Lilith said
as she surreptitiously kissed a note and slipped the lipstick covered scrap of
paper into his pocket. Following Angela
to her car Tom glanced at the note.
“Lilith Veil. I know about the book. Call me.”
On the other side of the scrap of
paper was her phone number.
Angela was quiet during the short
ride to the church. Tom also remained
quiet. His thoughts alternated between
wondering what Lilith had to do with the book and his appointment with Father
Alphonsus.
Angela parked at the curb.
“Tom that woman at the diner is up to
no good. I have a strong feeling about
this and I’m usually right.”
“You have nothing to worry
about. I’m with you.”
“Don’t forget the book,” she said,
handing him his shoulder bag.
Tom walked up to the rectory. Before going in he hesitated for a moment to
look back at the car. Angela nodded
encouragement, motioning with her hands to go inside. He took a deep breath, pulled the door open
then went inside.
“It’s nice to see you again,” said
the same receptionist he rushed past on his last visit.
“I’m sorry if I was a little rude
last time,” said Tom.
“Don’t worry about it. I understand how difficult life can
become. Father Alphonsus took me under
his wing. He made a real difference in my
life.”
Tom put on a polite smile. He wondered if she was being paid to drum up
business for the priest.
“How much will it cost to see Father
Alphonsus?”
“He doesn’t accept money.”
“Really? I thought he was once a psychiatrist. He must charge something or require a
contribution to the church.”
“He insists on no discussion of money
at any time. He only wants to do God’s
work.”
Tom decided to stop the conversation
before she tried to recruit him into the faith, “The Armed Forces of the
Church”.
Her enthusiasm stopped when she saw
the expression on his face.
“I’ll tell him you’re here.”
A moment later Father Alphonsus
appeared.
“Good to see you again Tom,” he said
giving him a firm warm handshake.
“Let’s go into my office where we can
talk in private.”
Father Alphonsus pulled the chair out
from behind his desk so they could be face to face without the barrier of the
desk between them. Their knees almost
touched.
“How about a short prayer before we
begin?”
“If it’s alright with you, I’d rather
not."
The priest looked a bit disappointed.
“That’s fine. Now have you brought the book that’s been
giving you so much trouble?”
First Tom explained the details of
the ceremony he performed. Then he took
the book out of his shoulder bag and handed it to him.
“Fine leather, gold leaf page edges,
the ouroboros etching on the cover. This
is a beautiful book. The ouroboros is a
bit odd because it’s shooting fire towards its tail instead of eating it. It must mean destruction instead of renewal.
On the back cover of the book, I see
a letter ‘Y’ that’s been altered. The
side pointing to the left ends in an arrow while the side pointing to the right
ends in a short horizontal line. I’m not
sure what this letter ‘Y’ symbolizes.
I’ll have to look it up but for now let’s concentrate on the book
itself.”
Father Alphonsus gently ran his
fingers across the gold edges of the book.
The back of the book gradually opened allowing the empty vial,
candleholders and serpent illustrated cloth to fall to the floor.
“A hidden compartment! I see what you mean,” he said with the
innocent excitement of a child finding a new toy. He put everything back into the compartment.
Tom took the book from him and opened
it up to the missing pages.
“See here is where the chapter on
reversing the ceremony is supposed to be.”
"Yes, I see it's blank."
Father Alphonsus sat back in his
chair and slowly turned the pages. Tom
watched the priest’s face as he slowly studied each page one after the
other. The expression on his face
changed from curiosity to an extremely troubled look.
"This is the book that is giving
you so much heartache?"
“Skim through some of the pages to
get a general idea. The illustrations
are good. The instructions tempt your
curiosity urging you to read more. It
seems like play acting; only a game but after leading you into the ceremony
there’s no way back out.”
“Why did you drink the liquid in the
vial? It may have been a hallucinogen.”
“Look at the directions in chapter
three the Initiation Ceremony,” Tom said.
Father Alphonsus adjusted his glasses
before looking closely into the book.
“Reconciliation was supposed to be
the next chapter. As you can see it’s
missing.”
Father Alphonsus brought the book
closer to the desk lamp, his face closer to the book and began thumbing through
the pages. Tom remained silent for a
while to let the priest concentrate on the text. It was taking longer than expected. Tom could not wait.
“Well? What do you think I should do? I mean do you think you can help me?”
Father Alphonsus’ face now took on a
sad look of sympathy. He looked at the
book then he looked at Tom. Then he took
a deep breath and let out a long-troubled sigh.
"See I told you it was bad.”
The old priest remained silent.
“I know it’s not some magic spell,”
Tom said.
Father Alphonsus was about to
speak. He stopped when Tom continued.
“I want you to help me get passed the
guilt. I think the guilt is making me
lose touch with reality, making me believe that what I read in the book is
true. You even said to yourself that
someone can stop believing with their mind but still believe deep inside. I need someone to help me sort this out, to
help bring me back to my normal self again.
You were once a psychiatrist. You
must know a way to help me."
The priest paused for a moment before
speaking.
"My son, this is nothing but a
blank book. There is nothing printed on
these pages. It must be some sort of
diary.”
Tom took the book from him and looked
at the pages. He was right. They were all blank.
“Listen, don’t panic. I don’t practice psychiatry any longer, but I
can help you find someone to evaluate what’s happening to you.”
“Father Alphonsus there could be
another explanation. I don’t believe in
the supernatural powers of the book, and I don’t believe I’m insane.”
“Don’t misunderstand me. I never intended to imply that you’re
insane. There are many possible
explanations. A psychiatrist can help
explain a delusion caused by too much stress, a fever, lack of sleep or
depression and anxiety. During the
ceremony, you drank the blue liquid that was in the vial. It may have contained a hallucinogen.”
“Someone could have gone into my
apartment and switched books on me. He
could have taken the original book and replaced it with a book containing only
blank pages,” Tom said.
“Isn’t that explanation a bit
far-fetched?”
“There was a cabdriver who seemed to
know something about me. He didn’t even
wait for me to pay him, saying I owed much more than I could pay for with
money.”
“But that doesn’t mean…”
Tom interrupted the priest before he
could finish.
“Then there’s the woman at the diner
who gave me this note.”
Tom checked the note to make sure her
writing was still there. He did not want
a repetition of disappearing text.
“It says her name and that she knows
about the book,” Tom said as he handed the note to priest.
“I see it does, but it can also have
many other meanings. Perhaps she learned
about your shoplifting the book.”
“I don’t know. I’m so confused.”
The old priest took Tom’s hands in
his.
“It won’t hurt to see a
psychiatrist. At the very least, he can
give you something to ease your anxiety until everything is straightened
out. I have the names of a few doctors who
practice nearby. One of them can help
you.”
“I guess I can try.”
Father Alphonsus wrote the names of
the psychiatrists then handed the note to Tom.
“I’ll check up on you in a day or so
to see how you’re doing.”
Tom thanked him, took the book, and
went back to Angela waiting in the car.
He entered the car without saying a word.
“What’s wrong? I can tell it didn’t go so well,” Angela
said.
Tom shrugged his shoulders as he
looked down at the book on his lap.
“Can I see the book now?”
“There’s nothing to see,” he said,
handing her the book.
Angela thumbed through the pages of
the book. When she saw nothing, she
rolled down the car window and held it in the sunlight.
“Tom there’s nothing in this book,
only blank pages.”
Angela stared at the open book on her
lap.
“Angela, what are you thinking? Do you think I’ve lost my mind? Someone could have switched my book with a
blank book.”
“I’m confused. The book is blank, but you truly believe
there was something in it. But then
again you seem to doubt this is the same book.
I don’t understand.”
“Well, you’ve perfectly described my
present predicament.”
“What do you mean?”
“Someone switched my book with a
blank one. Either that or I’m losing my
mind.”
“But who would do such a thing and
why? Who would even know you had the
book or even care?” Angela asked.
“The cabdriver seemed to be angry
with me. He must know something about
it. Then there’s Lilith, the woman at
the diner.”
“What can she possibly have to do
with all of this?” Angela was still upset about how Lilith flirted with Tom.
Tom showed Angela the note with
Lilith’s name and phone number.
"That bitch! She's trying to steal you away from me. You are with me, right?"
"Sure I am. But maybe it’s all part of an
initiation. They’re following me to make
sure I’m worthy enough to join them.
They keep switching books on me.
First, they switched it with a book missing the chapter on
reconciliation. Then when they saw, I
was going to the priest for help they switched it again but this time with a
completely blank book. That way I
couldn’t give away their secret society.”
“Tom, what did Father Alphonsus say
about it?”
“He gave me the name of a few
psychiatrists.”
They both burst out laughing.
“Tom this sounds very strange. The vial of blue liquid could have brought on
this completely delusional experience.
Tell the psychiatrist.”
“Yeah. Why not?
What else can I do?”
“I’ll be here to help you.”
Tom leaned over trying to give her a
warm kiss. Angela hesitantly puckered
her lips keeping her mouth closed. His
lips encircled her lips, his tongue coming to a stop.
Angela started the car and drove off
without saying anything. She was worried
about Tom, but she was also worried about herself. She was not sure why she wanted to stay with
him, why she let herself get involved with such a man.
Angela seems to be in more trouble than Tom.
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